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March 21st, 2007
08:56 pm - let me make a difference
so-things have been crazy lately.
im doing ok in school-starting to fall behind though as the semester ends.
whatevs.
im like really missing my brother. everyday it gets worse-all i want is to see him for more than 10 minutes. i just wish we were a family again.
i also found out my grandmothers not doing good-like my dad knew for like 2 weeks before i found out-he accidently slipped in front of me.
don't i deserve to know these things?!?
she's like freaking and it sucks-i feel so bad-but theres nothing i can do...she's going to have her way.
other than that-things are great i guess.
my boyfriend is great. he's pretty fantastic. lol.
we have formal on may 12th, so i get to ring in my 20th with him and his brothers. it'll be fun.
annd-sring break was ok-my computers busted now it sucks.
but im glad i got friend time in over break.
theres one thing i will never understand-and it's how you work-i know it's a lie-and thats the sad part.
Current Location: dorm
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/mellow_sg.gif) lazy
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December 19th, 2006
09:41 pm - reflections
so lately i've been really bummed. this whole college thing is kind of bringing me down, and i miss my brother, but i've been doing some thinking. i was flying through myspace one day, and i saw my old best friends page. it threw me back to all the nights we spent together, all the trouble we got in, and the feeling of invincibility.
but that wsa before, as we grew up and grew apart our lives went in different directions. and i'm now realizing who my friends have been all along. my friends have been the people who not only come to me with their problems, but listen and help me wiht mine. they don't just sit here and say "i'm sorry" they don't give me bad advice and talk down on people that i care about.
and looking at it now, it's better we went our seperate ways. the saying is true "people aren't in your life for a reason" if i were still friends with them, i would be just like them, at home doing drugs and being a freak. how does it feel? to know that you wake up in the morning just to smoke pot? you waste your money and waste your life.
i'm glad i've made the decisions i have, and i'm really kind of happy at the way my life is turning out.
i'm glad i have the people in my life that i do.
i jsut wish my brother was back in my life for good.
Current Location: my dorm.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/sad_sg.gif) depressed
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November 19th, 2006
07:31 pm - and its always better when your around
im watching this show about anorexics and they're trying to get better.
im on a new diet.
im on a complete life turn around.
sorry if im not around a lot-i'm going through some stuff- i hope you guys will forgive me.
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October 19th, 2006
06:10 pm - the things you say...your unbelievable
so. college.... =)
and my face looks great.
and i've been drinking like every night, uhh. my liver is going to fail any day now.
monouth this weekend.
i can't wait to go see my friends again. i kinda miss them. <3
and things with dou are actually good....weird.
miss you sexxxy bitches down in twp, well, at school, but from twp. =)
Current Location: dorm
Current Music: emf- unbelievable
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September 29th, 2006
03:51 am
i wish i had some one telling me what to do.
i really need my best friends right now. =(
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/confused_sg.gif) confused
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August 14th, 2006
05:00 pm - and i know you won't let me down
my summer passed so fast.
it feels like yesterday i was so ready to come home...now i'm so ready to go back.
summer wasn't exactly what i planned it to be, but it was fantastic none-the-less.
i spent so many amazing nights with my friends, and i couldn't have asked for anything more.
when i think back i think of roadtrips and late night chats. drinking and playing games. making friends and losing friends. it was so awesome. thanks friends.<3
but for whom it may concern-
thanks for sucking at life and making my life better.
love patti.
anyway. i love my friends.
and of course doug. =)
annnd lifes fabulous.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/awake_sg.gif) grateful
Current Music: eagles-take it to the limit
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July 5th, 2006
02:38 am - and given the chance-id lie again
so ...summer ohhh six is fucking amazing!!!!
sure i dont party every night. sure i work a lot. and sure i dont see my friends everyday.
but the past two days has sumed up my summer and made it perfect.
soo the third. i was supposed to have people over. and then my mom said she was coming home. so i really couldn't. and doug invited me to a aprty up north at dave's.
so i called up laura and monica, laura couldn't go, so it was jsut me and monica.
we left at like 9.15 for our two hour drive and the entire way we were screaming at people to go back to their own states.
then the party was just... indescribable. it was jsut like chill. like everyone got along, jsut sat around and drank. it was amazing.
oh and of course i got to spend some quality time with doug.<3
then today. came home. slept off my hangover and went to lauras and sat with her outside and jsut talked.
we're going to oz.
and she blows her nose for hours. haha. moments in life she'll NEVER get back.
this is what summer is to me. the moments in your life when things go right.
road trips.
partys.
jsut hanging out.
i love summertime. <3
annnnd im in love with my boyfriend! =)
so it's 2.45 a.m. and i have to go iron my uniforms and go to work in a couple hours. haha.
Current Location: home.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/happy_sg.gif) happy
Current Music: just to see you smile - tim mcgraw
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June 28th, 2006
02:46 am - where the fucks my fucking train?
im in love.
5.5.06 <3
Current Location: aunts house
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/loved_sg.gif) loved
Current Music: mission hill on the tv.
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June 7th, 2006
04:39 pm - i miss picnics and blue jeans and buckets of beer
whoever thought i could hold on to doug...this is for you-
Oh/But you know me better than that.
You know the me that gets lazy and fat.
How moody I can be, all my insecurities.
You've seen me lose all my charm, you know I was raised on a farm.
Oh, she tells his friends I'm perfect
And that I love that cat, but you know me better than that.
i made up my mind.
and im shaving my head. thats a whole nother decision though.
Current Location: house
Current Music: you know me better than that - george strait
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May 31st, 2006
03:31 am - i think its about forgiveness
well, so...MDW '06 was a success.
i fully had an amazing weekend, and the rents never found out their house was entirely trashed.
thats alsways a good thing.
hanging out with the friends all the fucking time... AMAZING.
this is fully the best summer ever, and it jsut started.
can't w
i've started work...it's mad boring, but the pay is fucking great.
i found this store in the mall i really like. zumies.
fucking amazing store. like, woah. so awesome i actually bught capri's there today.
shock, i know.
try to calm down.
and this whole doug thing.
he is fully the love of my life...and im being serious here.
he's like perfect.
i can't wait to go back to school and fully date him full time...im tired of this part time bullshit.
i understand him... he got his heart broken and rebounded with some crazy psycho bitch. like i fully understand.
and the distance thing is hard.
but it's silly you know.... i live two hours from him, and we both agreed we're technically single, but i can't even like picture myself going on a date with anothre guy...he's always on my mind...it's kind of disgusting.
but anyway.
i can't wait to be at the beach.
i can't wait to get some money and go shopping again.
this summer is definatly going to be the best ever and one for the books.
i'm so excited. =)
Current Location: home
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: green day - jesus of suburbia
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May 20th, 2006
01:38 am - sew this up with threads of reason and regret
i don't have anything to write.
but i feel like i had to write something.
so i'll write that i feel betrayed.
and it makes me speechless.
friends are few in numbers.
my numbers are really few.
watch for postings i might jsut call off mdw.
thank god i fucking work nights.
i'm ready for school. fuck this town and all its bullshit.
Current Location: house
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: eagles - lying eyes
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May 15th, 2006
06:55 pm - its all right to little bitty
so uh.
this has been the most fan-fucking-tastic week ever.
minus the fact that a ton of my friends are far far away.
but.
so lets recap.
monday- went up to school, saw doug. -we had a sleep over in alyssa's room
tuesday-finished my finals, took doug home, dinner with my aunt, said bye bye to montclair.
wednesday- first of many days smoke free-while being clean and sober. applied for a job-lounged around - saw monica and dana.
thursday-got a job-did fun stuff.
friday-cleaned around the house- monica took me out to play pool and dennys for my b-day. saw bits.
SATURDAY! - got a TON of birthday calls and ims (doug was first on the phone)- celebrated my birthday - patti style- went to super saturday. a.k.a. my birthday party.broke my sunglasses. =( had lunch with mon. went shopping with mommy, red lobster for dinner. then mothers day preperations with the brother.
sunday- happy mothers day. mom went on her scavenger hunt, ew went to see my aunt, grandma (grr) and then to my cousins confirmmation party. it was pretty lame. then doug came. =) i got it for this boy..badly.
today-got my grades!! I PASSED MY FRESHMAN YEAR BITCHES!
writing - B-
history- B
Italian- C
computers- C+
i'm so happy.
and laura's home. we're going to get tattoos within the next 2 months.
and monica is my hero. shes the fucking shit.
and i miss my friends from school so much.
annnnnd.
i seirosuly have it bad for doug. i can't get him off my mind. and whenever i'm around him-hell even talking to him-i can't get this dumb grin off my face. =)
cant wait to see him.
also can't wait to get my ass to the beach and do some tanning!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: tenacious d - fuck her gently
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May 8th, 2006
12:48 am - all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away again
my birthday is saturday.
im not sure anyone cares.
or will care.
oh well.
its been a long year.
i have a long shot right now.
it wont happen, so i wont write abuot it.
anyway.
happy fucking birthday to everyone.
Current Location: house
Current Music: garth brooks - beaches of cheyenne
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May 3rd, 2006
12:29 am - he promised her he'd turn out....turned out he lied
LAME
im over boys.i hate them and they suck.
nate was nice.took me to dinner&a movie and treated me like a princess.
stole my heart
then broke it
whatever. home for summer. =)
its gunna be so much fun with my bestest friends.
but first...it's birthday season.... i love birthday season.
beaches.boardwalks.boys.&bands
getting drunk&getting tans
having fun&staying up late
being with best friends&accepting fate
these will be the nights we'll never remember
with the friends we'll never forget.
*summer '06
Current Location: home
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/working_sg.gif) productive
Current Music: stacey's mom -fountains of wayne
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April 27th, 2006
03:11 pm - i would swallow my pride.
guess who comes home this weekend!
hell yeah bitches im done my first year at college.
whos ready to have some fucking fun!
i can't wait to go home.
can't wait to start working again.
can't wait to not be stuck in this small fucking room all day.
patti romaine has made a complete and total fucking turn around.
i love realizing im such a better person then what i was.
and i love when i see people who ditched me because of who i was, and i love rubbing it in their face that they're missing out on the new me.
haha fuck off.
i love my friends.
and this summer will be hard...but we'll pull through. <3
you guys are my world and i won't give you up.
Current Location: blister in the sun - festering vems?
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April 10th, 2006
03:05 am
semi was amazing.
we all got shit faced...i dont remember half the night.
rugby on saturday was indescribable...best experience of my life...then after we all went to some girls dorm and drank. then i came back to campus and drank more.
i was drunk for 14 hours consecutivly yesterday.
i'm done drinking for a little while...i drank every night for the past week.
i've had enough.
anyway...i'm getting my life together...it is like...amazing. i can't even describe how it feels to know your in control again.
i still have a sleeping problem but thats ok, it'll get better eventually.
well, im on like a cleaning spree at 3 a.m. so im gunna go finish.
and i don't even get phone calls anymore. :(
i think my friends hate me.
...but they're still the best!!!!
Current Location: dorm
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: hurt - johnny cash
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April 7th, 2006
11:40 am - your still the same old girl you used to be
why are guys such scum?
why do i have the best friends in the entire world?
...the world may never know.
anyway, i went to the bulls house last night for a party...awesome. i love those boys.
semi is tonight. im not so excited right now, but maybe when im done classes i'll be excited.
and its rainy and nasty out. meh. i want it to get nice!!!!
rugby tomorrow. i'm stoked for that. beating bitches up is like my favorite hobby. =)
i wish someone would come visit me. =(
oh well. semesters almost over and i can't wait. summer is gunna be killer. laying out in the sun all day. seeing the best people ever every second of the day...and nothing gets better than driving around in a car with the ones you love "so....what do you wanna do?" AH! I MISS IT! it'll be here soon enough....and i'll put my sun roof down...at night. hahaha.
other than that, lifes cool. i'm actually like getting into this school thing, like doing my hmwk and such. it's crazy...i might just pass....actually, no...i dont believe in projects.
so yeah. :p
Current Location: dorm
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/indifferent_sg.gif) blah
Current Music: helena - my chemical romance
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April 3rd, 2006
11:13 pm - please remember me
i love being a convenience.
it makes my fucking life complete.
wait for it....
and a big fuck off goes out there to everyone who doesn't give a shit.
im done being a convenience.
Current Location: my dorm
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/grumpy_sg.gif) annoyed
Current Music: Please Remember Me - Time McGraw
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01:01 am - i got a hand for you
fuck boys.
they suck.
how many times does it take for ppl to realize not to fuck with me.
jesus christ.
the hting i hate most in this world is liars.
why do ppl see the need to lie about stupid shit.
fuck.
maybe this is jsut what i needed.
i have better things to worry about then stupid fucking boys.
especially ones with mohawks...who wear tighter pants than me...and who like hootie and the blowfish.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/green/angry_sg.gif) pissed off
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March 28th, 2006
06:49 pm - i'll be alright i'm just missin you
so...sorority life isn't that bad.
actually, its really fun.
partys forever...bars always.
and im on a rugby team.
sweet.
but. frat boys are gay. they're nice but they're all after the same thing.
but thats ok...cz i think im falling for someone...
he has a mohawk
his pants are tighter than mine
and he loves hootie and the blowfish.
crazy.
anyway. im doing bad in school...but thats ok. my social life kicks ass six ways from next tuesday.
thats all.
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: lying eyes - the eagles
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